Matthew 13
45″Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. 46When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it.
The key to this is desire. We are so lukewarm because we do not desire this pearl. We do not desire the pearl because our hearts are hardened. Therefore, we do not pay the price, because we do not esteem the pearl.
What therefore can we do? I will tell you my story. I desire to desire, but it is as if my whole heart is hard. And Love therefore bounces off this hard rock. Nevertheless there is hidden in a crevice, deep underground, a pool of molten magma, the desire to desire. This is the beginning. So, let us take that, this weak candle, this desire to desire and bring it to Him, knowing that this Heart of molten Love itself can take this meagre reserve – this desperate reaching out from a hardened heart, this small desire to desire – this impossible stretching to the Heart itself, knowing this:
Matthew 12 20A bruised reed he will not break,
and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out,
till he leads justice to victory.
Take this smoldering wick, take this weak desire, so often smothered by the cares of the world and the tyranny of time, and transform it. Let this desire to desire blossom into desire itself, that this may then lead us to abandon all that we have for this Pearl of great price, the desire for God Himself – on His terms and not ours.
The Age To Come 
Greetings. The desire to desire. The hunger and thirst that we need for the things of God. This past weekend was consumed by things in the natural, culminating by a plumbing mishap on Sunday afternoon requiring a visit from Roto Rooter. A couple of hours later and $320 lighter the problem was resolved leaving a huge mess in the basement to clean up. Later on that evening I was pondering all of thre obligations in the physical world and it “got to me.” I so long to be about my Fathers business in ways that my present situation in life doesn’t cater to. This going on and that going on. Always rtunning. Always something in the natural that keeps us from that which our heart desires to be doing.
Sorry for using your blog as a sounding board. The hour is so late, so many are outside the household of faith and every form of distraction seems to get in the way. I’ve had the verse on my heart much lately “the kingdom of heaven suffers violence and the violent take it by force.” I’m not in context with it perhaps, but we need to almost “violently” take up our responsibility.
Also on my heart for the past several weeks is this need to think from an eternal perspective. To truly have our affections on things above. Thanks for such a needful reminder. May we all be stirred up to seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness.
have a blessed evening in Jesus.
timbob
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I have held onto that scripture at times in the past, when it seemed the flames would burn so fierce there would surely be nothing left but ashes, or the floods so deep the fire extinguished.
May the Spirit ever breathe on our smoldering wicks until they are a brightly burning flame of love and desire for Christ.
Blessings to you Peter!
Susan
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You’re right Timbob – it’s amazing how things in the ‘natural’ can be such a distraction. Lord give us wisdom to discern the difference between the urgent and the important.
Hello Susan, and amen to your prayer! 🙂
Blessings,
Peter
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